이제야또렷이보이는군요전이제더이상신의이름으로기도만하지않겠습니다아쉽겠지만이런건더이상통하지않습니다필요없는말은줄이겠습니다오시지요타락좋습니다기꺼이타락하여이세상을구원할수있다면이손에피를묻히더라도어째서선한자들은고통받고악한자들은번성하는가아직입니다두고보십시오당신의뜻이아닌내의지로무엇을이룰수있는지이것도받아보시죠당신이하지않는다면제가직접하겠습니다너무많은희생이있었고너무많은희생이기다리고있습니다이곳에서당신을쓰러트리고모두를구해내겠습니다이고통에얽힌슬픔과깊은증오를새겼을때비로소길을찾았습니다제가맞이한이어두운침묵이결국외면하던혼돈이었단것을되찾았을뿐입니다물러나세요감내할수없는혼돈은무엇보다깊은상처를새길테니이해는바라지않습니다안락한은혜안에가려져온진실을이제야밟아갈길을찾았을뿐저를항상시험에들게하시는군요어쩌면당신을부수는짓이그이상의희생을무르는일이라한다면기꺼이감내하려합니다선과악의경계는다들위태롭다했으나전그경계를허물겠습니다더이상버림받은슬픔은만들지않겠습니다진정한평화란구분짓지않았을때찾아올겁니다저는인정하려합니다이외면이거대한혼돈을키웠다는것을참혹했던진실을외면하지마세요희생을요구하는운명이라면신의목을꺾어서라도새로운길을낼것입니다어쩔수없는희생이란무능함의변명입니다제가혼돈을삼킨이유는그누구도뒤쳐지지않은평화일지니제존재가그가말한기적이되겠습니다스스로선이라외치는믿음은오만이요참혹한결과를초래한다는것을깨달았습니다질서란혼돈위에덧칠한금박에불과할뿐그간믿고싶던진실이가장정직한거짓임을인정하려합니다고통받는생명들과그들을향한연민은누군간집착이라하나그저이세상을향한마지막고집이라하겠습니다당신도이해해주셨으면합니다모든것을버리진못하니제가유일하게버릴수있는것은저일뿐보이는것이전부인줄알았으나외면하고있던진실이었을뿐이힘은죄악이아닌가장근원적인평온임을참혹한진실을가리고자눈을감았으나결국보이는것은끝없는혼돈일뿐피할수없는것을피하고있었습니다비겁한평온이이고통의정점이된것임을깨달았을뿐입니다방해하지말아주세요정신이흐릿해지는이고통에도저는멈추지않겠습니다더이상다가오지마십시오이희생에동의는필요없습니다부탁이아닙니다비켜서십시오희생은되풀이되어서는안됩니다당신의이해를바라지않습니다이제는돌이킬수없습니다보통각오로는제의지를막을수없을것입니다이곳에서제가신을버리고신이되겠습니다어째서당신은그렇게도저를이해하지않는것입니까정신이아득히날아갈것같은이고통을세상에풀어놓을순없습니다신앙을아득히뛰어넘는고통이무엇인지당신은알지못합니다고통질병죽음제희생으로그것을막아야합니다신의뜻이라는핑계로너무나도많은시간을방황했습니다당신의믿음과신앙이신의뜻이라는이름의고집일지지켜보겠습니다이고통속에서제희생이옳은것임을증명해내겠습니다비키시지요물러나세요방해입니다절막지마십시오어째서신야베오나르로젠바흐그라시아라미에르당신까지이런수를안배해두었다니크억크아아악